“Wolf mother where you been? You look so worn and so thin.
Wolf mother you’re a taker, death maker, hear you sing, ya ya.
Wolf mother at the door, you don’t smile anymore.
You’re a drifter, a shape shifter, see you run, ya ya.”



Somebody That I Used To Know: Walk off the Earth (Gotye – Cover) Wonderful work. A single guitar and five voices becomes a crisp work of art. Very nice. The song speaks volumes about leaving the past behind too.

Walking away from communication challenges because they might cause others to re-examine their cherished beliefs, or lead to irritation, anger, hostility, and sometimes violence, is how the world got to be what it is today: compromised, polluted,  sliced and diced into billions of pieces and parts called yours and mine.

I do not fear truth. I fear those who do not respect truth enough to leave it unmolested, and who instead water it down into something they can bludgeon others with called an opinion.  Life isn’t just about forming opinions, it’s about the quest for truth.  The acquiring and letting go of opinion for something greater. Not your truth, not my truth. Our truth. THE truth. With a capital T. There is such a thing you know. Not a thousand shades!

Look for truth and it will find you, but so will ignorant people who would like nothing better than to bring you down to their particular shade of gray, and often succeed because it’s easier for them to drag you down than it is for you to pull them up.

Opinion, like ignorance, does not trump fact. But it sure as hell tries.

Another dog and pony with a potential investor in my company who “knows other people with money” happened yesterday, and this afternoon the person sent me a polite no thanks email.  Didn’t offer to make a symbolic donation.  Or even leave a personal endorsement on our web site. Instead she spent 5 valuable hours interrogating me like a beat cop to come to her “decision” to refuse to even introduce me to people in her loop.

Worse, this person wouldn’t even consider tapping out a 100-word endorsement for introducing water-soluble, biodegradable fuel made from wastes. She couldn’t see the value in lending her name to our effort because “nobody” knows her. (Never mind that the request is coming from the company’s CEO, who’s also been a personal friend for a decade, he thinks it’s important enough to ask.)  Besides being lame it’s completely untrue; she is quite well known and respected. But this is the norm in latter-day America. Hide when somebody asks you to do the right thing, especially when it involves taking a chance.

People not willing to lend their name to a new business with an incredible mission, even when the upside is a complete remake of the energy landscape, and a real hope of repairing the planet’s tattered environment, is absolutely baffling.

It takes more than money to shift an unhealthy, some would say suicidal, fossil energy paradigm. Petroleum and coal are filthy, toxic sources of energy that can be made much cleaner simply by making and blending in clean higher mixed alcohol fuels before they’re combusted.  All that needs to happen is for you to shine a light on the subject!

It takes intestinal fortitude and stubbornness to keep pushing when nobody is behind you supporting the business effort beyond lip service.  Even good lip service is hard to come by. But text is too much trouble for people who believe they aren’t capable of making a difference in large-scale outcomes, or that a simple endorsement doesn’t matter.  What if your endorsement was the one that tipped the scales in our favor?

Next! Care to leave your endorsement of Bioroot Energy? Here you go. Thank you very much, it is greatly appreciated.

“Coming home from very lonely places, all of us go a little mad: whether from great personal success, or just an all-night drive, we are the sole survivors of a world no one else has ever seen.”

John le Carre

I’m done with being an active daily visitor on Facebook.  In 1998 I moved to the mountains of western Montana and telecommuting as a career to be mostly shed of collective, in-your-face human stupidity, negative and aggressive people, the all-consuming urban milieu, and the obligatory crap that comes with living like maladjusted rats in a cage right next to hundreds, thousands or millions of other similarly afflicted rats.

A year on Facebook being “social” has reminded me why, over and over again, I  made the right choice.  Most of what people who live in America’s cities, drive cars to work and have regular jobs think is important, isn’t.  Same with folks camped out on Facebook, generally. It’s just plain stupid socializing, like a cocktail party after midnight, and from what I’ve seen it brings up that level of saccharine banality and occasional streaks of meanness from people (if that…) and leaves little room for more.

Ignoring what’s important? Check. Niggling over minutia? Check! Whipping up sentiments? Good luck. Blurting trite tripe into the ether for other people to react to? Check!  ”Click Like if you love Jesus Christ!”  Being witty and “personal” in under 455 characters? Yep. It’s all there. Facebook asks,  ”What’s on your mind?” In a great big nutshell, it’s people ignoring mountains, and instead manufacturing false Everests out of molehills.  Much ado about not much at all.

I’ve learned that people who are interested in what I’m up to are a fraction of the people listed on my Facebook account as Friends. Real friends can always visit my personal site. The rest of you can, uh, talk about ‘Smores or the latest “undiscovered” video of the Monkees on Facebook.

If I die tomorrow, I will go happy knowing I did the right thing. I love my friends and family but there are more important and more rewarding pursuits than being a stalwart Facebooker.

Like just about everything else. :-)

How fitting for a large-scale environmental and human disaster to happen in the good old polluted USA on Earth Day, 2010.  It is a vivid reminder of everything the United States has yet to learn about taking care of the planet.  And it offers a compelling reason to reconsider Barack Obama’s recently announced plans for “limited” expansion of U.S. offshore oil and gas drilling.

With today’s massive explosion and complete destruction of Deepwater Horizon there’s been a tragic loss of human life, and the threat of an oil spill that could really make a mess of the Gulf of Mexico.

Think big oil is going to put the brakes on deep water drilling because of this? Think again.

Link to NYT article

Of course, we’re all thinking about you today Mom. Our thoughts made all the more wistful knowing that your dear nephew Gene was also put to rest in Ipswich, England early today.

Thanks for all you did for me, our family, and other people and animals in life, and what your memory continually inspires with the passing of years.

Judith Toups

If you could fit the entire population of the world into a village consisting of 100 people, maintaining the proportions of all people living on Earth, that village would consist of:

  • 57 Asians
  • 21 Europeans
  • 14 Americans (North, Central and South)
  • 8 Africans

There would be:

  • 52 women and 48 men
  • 30 Caucasians and 70 non-Caucasians
  • 30 Christians and 70 non-Christians
  • 89 heterosexuals and 11 homosexuals

6 people would possess 59% of the wealth and all would come from the USA

  • 80 would live in poverty
  • 70 would be illiterate
  • 50 would suffer from hunger and malnutrition
  • 1 would be dying
  • 1 would be being born
  • 1 would own a computer
  • 1 (yes, only one) would have a university degree

If we looked at the world this way, the need for acceptance and understanding would be obvious.

But, consider the following :

If you woke up this morning in good health, you have more luck than one million people who won’t live through the week.

If you have never experienced the horror of war, the solitude of prison, the pain of torture, were not close to death from starvation, then you are better off than 500 million people.

If you can go to your place of worship without fear that someone will assault or kill you, then you are luckier than 3 billion (that’s right) people.

If you have a full fridge, clothes on your back, a roof over your head and a place to sleep, you are wealthier than 75% of the world’s population.

If you currently have money in the bank, in your wallet and a few coins in your purse, you are one of 8 of the privileged few amongst the 100 people in the world.

If your parents are still alive and still married, you’re a rare individual.

If someone sent you this message, you’re extremely lucky, because someone is thinking of you and because you don’t comprise one of those 2 billion people who can’t read.

And so,

Work like you don’t need the money.
Love like nobody ever hurt you.
Dance like nobody is watching.
Sing like nobody is listening.
Live as if this was paradise on Earth.

Share this message with your friends.

Bypass those who are determined to see the worst in the world no matter what.

If you don’t send it, nothing will happen.  If you do, someone might smile while reading it, and that will be a positive.

And apart from the above, have a nice day.

- Thanks to Mark R. for forwarding this gem, author unknown.

Passive aggression can be a terrible thing when you experience it firsthand from another person. I think you’ll be seeing lots more of this form of anti-social behavior from people as the economy deteriorates further and the pressure to maintain one’s personal status quo and lifestyle increases. I certainly am experiencing it.

Recently a person I believed was a fairly close and trustworthy friend decided to end our friendship in a rather spectacular manner. Even though he’s the one who blew up the friendship for no reason in particular, he blamed it all on me with a searing email that basically took me apart, piece by piece. “I’m selfish. People don’t like me. I don’t do anything for anyone. My pessimism is stifling. My politics are insane.” (He’s a Republican.) I’m a fierce independent who doesn’t cotton to party lines or parroting what I’ve heard somewhere else. Yea, having a personal opinion and the guts to lay it out, I guess that’s insane.

M’kay…So it’s pretty hard to be friends with someone who now thinks that low of me. But I won’t return fire what I could say in response because I still like the guy, in spite of his crudities and massive failure to cope. I think he’s under pressure to keep his life from blowing to smithereens because his family’s overhead is far larger than his family’s income. He could lose his house.

I “caused” it just by being myself, not for having done anything in particular, just for being who I am. Who I am is apparent within an hour of meeting me. It doesn’t take three years to discover what I’m about and form an opinion. I see myself as being like garlic and onions. You either like me or you don’t. Just don’t act like my best buddy for three years, then blow up and expect me to believe the incredibly personal criticisms.

I’m going to keep the sunny side up in all of my interactions with other people even if the other guy goes Ape shit.

*Other People’s Shit

Jay’s Analogous Hierarchy Of Social Shit™ (1st Wipe) (2nd Pass)

  • Chicken Shit
  • Bull Shit
  • Elephant Shit
  • Ape Shit

Want to be a social animal, adroitly ascending the proverbial ladder or at least stay put, and hone your natural sensitivity for all kinds of social interactions, occasionally going “deep”, while adeptly keeping even the shallowest friendships and contacts with other acquaintances sunny side up? Me too.

I really need to develop a better nose for detecting the type of shit I’m hearing, or reading. My online and offline social life could well depend on it.

So world, behold what I believe are the 3 4 fundamental political, rhetorical and social interactive devices of our time. It seems much of what dribbles in spurts and gushes from the minds, fingers and mouths of people online and off is classifiable into distinkt, readily detectable buckets of crap. Very much like the odoriferous emanations which flow regularly (and oh so abundantly) from the backsides of the aforementioned animals.

Sure there’s good stuff to be had in almost all the categories. That’s the whole point of human interaction isn’t it? Richness and loamy variety to please the intellectual appetite, not too cheesy or too volatile. But sometimes, what comes from other people needs to be carefully examined and managed before you digest it. So take a deep breath and read on!

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So I’m reviewing my site visitor logs this morning, and I see a bunch of hits from Baton Rouge Rocks, a bulletin board site. Somebody in Lousiana put my URL down as the 3rd suggestion for a “top” Toups.  I wonder though, what does being in the top of people who share a last name actually mean? Nothing? Probably. Don’t know the guy, or why he suggested I might be the third top Toups, but hey, any publicity is good publicity as long as it doesn’t land me in jail.

I’m not much for the popularity game, but hey…

Thanks to Andy Attack for the listing!

stalker_boy_2009_sizedI’ve been harassed intermittently since 1990 or so by a wacko in Salt Lake City. For why, I haven’t a clue. Obviously I tweaked something in the guy’s twisted psyche to the point he felt the need to strike back and take me down a peg or three. (Good luck with that, Stalker Boy.)

When I still lived in the city of salt, I used to keep a log of the late night phone calls I’d get from this guy. Nearly 100 calls, as I recall. I’m sure it was a guy because of the obnoxious noises that came out the earpiece as I held it a foot or two away. (No woman could ever make such noises.)

I won’t tell you what kind of sounds because I don’t want to encourage any copycats. At any rate, the guy dropped a lot of quarters in payphones to let me know his, uh, feelings.

I even received a couple of letters and Christmas cards from the guy, reminding me that I am a “looser” and that my music sucks.  Alrighty then.

I move to Montana. 11 years go by with no contact from the weirdo. And then, last week, a letter arrived in the mail from Salt Lake from somebody whose name and address were unfamiliar to me. (Turns out they were fictitious.) The content of the letter?

“You’re still a big looser, cause no matter where you go there you are!”

Anonymous cowards, in real life and the Internet, are a sad lot. The only thing sadder is an anonymous schmuck who tries to unhinge people with a tasteless bag of stupid psychological tricks.

Good luck with your strategy to bring me down, Stalker Boy.  I don’t have those kind of buttons to push. :-)

The latest letter is in this post. I’ll be scanning and posting all of Stalker Boy’s “contributions” to my well being so that his handwriting (and pathetic spelling) is exposed for the world to see. Maybe someone who knows him will recognize the signature handwriting traits and rat him out.

Ray Bonneville penned a wonderful song about New Orleans and he performed it live in Folk Alley studios, check it out!

Ah, the terrible true tale of a telecommuting techie’s fiscal traumatization at the hands of a dim-witted client.  Last week a new small business client bounced their initial check for $1,000, and then followed that up via email saying “…sorry, but we don’t know when we can pay you the total due of $3250″ for the site (they’ve said repeatedly they think it’s great) because their products weren’t selling.

The bounced $1,000 check was the deposit on the project, which I held after beginning work on the project because they told me it might not clear “for a few days.” Well, finally, I did deposit it 9 weeks later, and it did bounce like they said it would.

I spent a few weeks of my life to design and build them a nice-looking, ridiculously easy to use, database-driven interactive web site, and then trained the managers, office staff and sales team in how to do all the site tasks they need, like editing and publishing pages, managing users, etc.  But since the site went live nobody in the company or the sales team has even logged in lately, letalone edited or added any content [Hello Success Story, or gosh! a video] or manage a user account.

The site is dead in the water of owner/user non-activity. And now I don’t get paid on time because they can’t sell their product. I wonder if there’s a correlation.

Gee,  Mr. Company President who can perfume the pig for hours just like Zig Zeigler but can’t balance the company checkbook, when I write a check for business or pleasure it’s spent money and NEVER spent twice.  Accounting 101. Sheesh.

My harshest recourse is to take down the  site.  Who turns off the power when the bill goes unpaid, right?  I could turn up the heat a bit and put up a SUSPENDED for NON-PAYMENT page.  I’ve read that other developers have done this with some success, although this technique for collecting a past due invoice tends to destroy what’s left of the developer-client relationship. And there’s always Small Claims.

So there are options, but none of them is as good as simply getting paid for services without a load of crap.

I can’t solve the problem of clients who are broke, untruthful, lazy, too busy or stupid but I’m here for [paying] clients, 24/7.

jeff_hickey1Jeff Hickey, a wonderfully humorous and witty man, father and gifted musician, who along with Harvey Reid, founded the Third Hand Capo Co. in 1979, died on June 14, two weeks after a single car accident.

I’d known Jeff since the late 80s, when he was the National Sales Manager for Larrivee’ Guitars. He’d roll through Salt Lake City paying visits to the acoustic music stores in a big RV stuffed with guitars, and he knew how to sell em and play em.

Jeff knew how to have a good time, and I learned a lot from his merry prankster ways. We met up at Telluride Bluegrass Festival several times back in the early 90s. He was the presenter of a sweet Larrivee’ Jumbo I won in a fingerstyle guitar competition at the festival in 1990,  and I’d been in touch a few times since. Last time we spoke in 2005 or so he was working on his “debut” recording, Loose Ends.

In Harvey Reid’s words:

“Since he has left behind a family with no income, I would like to lead an effort to encourage all those who loved him or enjoyed his company to express their condolences in a way that is consistent with Jeff’s lifelong love of music and participation in the underground “indie” music economy. Rather than sending something like flowers…

In addition to being an industrious and creative guy and a devoted father, Jeff was also a fine musician. To help his family, we are encouraging people to buy a copy of Jeff’s marvelous and award-winning CD “Loose Ends” while they last. He left behind a couple boxes of them, and buying a CD is a great way to remember this fine man and to help his family in their time of need. The CD’s are real, replicated, full-color, shrink-wrapped CD’s, of just Jeff singing with his guitar. Up-close and personal, and brilliantly done...

For more information about ordering a copy of Loose Ends, visit Jeff’s page.

I ordered mine this morning, and I’m sure it’s wonderful. Jeff was a strong fingerstyle player, he had excellent taste and tone, a good voice, and he always had a ton of tunes at his fingertips.

Ah Jeff, I’ll miss you. But I’m glad you left something of your musical self behind to be savored by the people who knew and admired you.

Loose Ends, indeed. You always had a way with words.

Happy Trails, old pal. Please let us earthlings know about any cool celestial capos you come across.

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The signs are up along Highway 90 in Gulfport, Mississippi. Judith was a force to be reckoned with on the coast, in life, and, it’s turning out (pun intended) in the afterlife.

She worked tirelessly to set aside and revegetate key parts of the public beach for nesting pairs of Least Terns. To this day her many birdwatching friends are still fighting to preserve and protect this habitat set aside for Least Tern breeding in 1976, right next to Gulfport-Biloxi’s busiest highway. It’s almost impossible to protect it from complete morons who still ignore the signs and fences and tromp through critical habitat, often in the middle of the night, crushing eggs and disturbing the chicks and their parents. I can remember as a kid the Terns dive bombing anyone who got near their nests, day or night.

My mother’s life story is good reading, and an example for anyone to follow in being a real environmentalist.

A local couple looks forward to a long weekend attending a music festival 120 miles from their mountaintop home.  Man gets up early the day before they plan to depart and drives his econobox diesel import 90 miles closer to the event to set up a tent early (he’s a cautious guy) to reserve a spot in a campground located 30 miles from the festival grounds.

90 miles later, the man returns home, having laid the groundwork for a wonderful American-style weekend.

Early the next morning the man gets up and drives 40 miles round trip to drop off their dog to a dogsitter. (Me.) Man then returns home, hooks up pickup truck to his 5th wheel RV and along with spousal unit drives 75 miles up and over a mountain pass back to the aforementioned campground.  Sets up RV camp, eats dinner. Probably asleep before sunset.

Friday morning they get in their pickup truck and drive 30 miles to the festival. Drink beer, eat food, listen to music. All well and good. Then its 30 more miles back to camp.

Saturday morning they again drive 30 miles to the festival. Drink beer, eat food, listen to music. All well and good. Then its 30 more miles back to camp.

Sunday morning they drive 30 miles to the festival. Drink beer, eat food, listen to music. All well and good. By afternoon they’ve had enough of the sun, food and music, then its 30 more miles back to camp. The man and woman pack up and head home, 75 miles away.

Once back home, man drops off spousal unit and RV, jumps back into the econobox and drives 40 miles round trip to retrieve his dog.

He was dog tired too.

Isn’t freedom wonderful?

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But is this kind of excess an anomaly for the couple in their quest for mobility? Uh, nope. The man has driven more than once from Montana to the east coast to bring cases of wine to his old friends.

I see from my site log that a person online from Wasilla visited after clicking a Google search link to an earlier post about SarahPAC one week after Obama took office.  Golly. I hope I didn’t hurt anyone’s feelings, especially Sarah’s, with what I said.

I hope you, Sarah, can keep up with everything we in the chattering class have to say.  I’m sure it gets old, huh? Has anyone (possibly even a cursed “liberal”) ever offered criticism you felt was valid and it made you somehow stronger?

That WaPo letter you wrote today expressing your concern about Obama’s Cap and Trade actions was brave, but predictable, Republican stuff. Feel better now? How about that blowback that says you don’t know what you’re talking about?

I agree with Andrew Sullivan. You don’t seem to understand cap and trade or acknowledge even one of the imperatives of having one in the first place.

Yes we need to drill responsibly, yes we need lower taxes. But America needs to innovate to survive the effects of stagnation and debt.  We need to start making much more than oil when it comes to energy. You don’t seem to understand that as well.

We can’t drill our way out of this hole.  We can’t tax our way out either.  So don’t get your knickers in a knot about Obama and his plans to pick your pocket.  Or waste time trying to cut us chattering nabobs down to size with your seething pen.  Ain’t gunna happen, sweetie.  We are all in this together, even if we’re worlds apart. Some of us are actually focused on solutions to what ails us. And some aren’t. They’re too busy pointing fingers.

Let’s chat about that, shall we?

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The son of a friend and neighbor passed away yesterday from MRSA. Jesse Dylan Baird, a.k.a. Diggs Dynamite, died in a Los Angeles hospital after struggling with this deadly superbug for a couple of weeks. A lifelong musician, singer, songwriter, drummer and guitarist, Jesse was working on a new CD project. I worked with him on a few technical issues related to the project briefly last summer when he was visiting his parents here in Darby.

Here’s a sample of Jesse’s music. It was fascinating to hear some of his brand of rough and tumble music, almost like he was from another planet where being “larger than life” was a matter of survival. Jesse was a hip guy who lived large and will be missed by a lot of people, me included.

Chris Waddell on Slickrock Trail, Moab, Utah

What can a middle-aged paraplegic athlete do that most walking people can’t even dream of, let alone do?

Chris Waddell, shown here with his Lightfoot-built handcycle on Utah slick rock, is planning and training to summit Mt. Kilimanjaro, the highest freestanding mountain on earth, on this handcycle in August.

Lightfoot Cycles is a local bike manufacturer specializing in recumbents and trikes. Check them out!

Enjoy what could well be our last few months of culturally reinforced American insularity and relative plenitude. But at least put this bit of news in your pipe and smoke it in the meantime.  Talk about it with family and friends. Or start digging up your backyard to grow some veggies.

I’m a happy guy despite how it may appear, but I am concerned about our economic situation. And I’m sure you probably are as well. If you aren’t concerned yet, you will be, even if you are a filthy rich redneck living off the grid at the end of your private road.

I think Americans across the board are about to experience a whole new world of hardship and economic pain that is incomprehensible to most of us at this juncture. I really hope not, but I’m not going betting against this out of control economic freight train.

“Barack Obama, and the criminal class on Wall Street, aided by a corporate media that continues to peddle silly video moments, fatuous gossip and trash talk as news while we endure the greatest economic crisis in our history, may have fooled us, but the rest of the world knows we are bankrupt. And these nations are damned if they are going to continue to prop up an inflated dollar and sustain the massive federal budget deficits, swollen to over $2 trillion, which fund America’s imperial expansion in Eurasia and our system of casino capitalism. They have us by the throat. They are about to squeeze.”

Link to Truthdig article.

So what’s the big problem? The rest of the world’s leading nations are actively dumping the dollar as reserve currency. What does this mean? How about the end of the American way of life. The end of American hegemony. The end of rampant militarization.  And possibly much, much worse.

When we elected Barack Obama, I was hopeful until I realized (again) that the problems which ail our country are fatal flaws that no politician can possibly fix. We are beyond broke. But of course, Obama’s good at fixing small problems with a single swat.

We are to put it mildly, screwed. Don’t say you didn’t know or believe the worst was still in front of you, read the article and get ready for the next economic crapstorm.

Hide me as a friend if you don’t like the topic. Or thank me later after you acknowledge that nobody you know is really talking about what’s going to happen next in this country. It’s called denial.

Or don’t thank me at all. But at least try to remove as much of yourself from the tracks as you can or you might get squashed flat like a Lincoln cent or smushed like the fly in the vid.

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My mother was a well known author, birding authority, and newspaper columnist for more than 35 years. She did a lot to preserve birding habitat on the Mississippi coast, and she helped thousands of people learn more about birds through her columns, her teaching, and her leadership.

A friend just said that every bird lady should have a highway named after them. I couldn’t agree more. The only problem is, there aren’t many true “bird ladies.”

She was a rare bird, indeed. Just like the rare birds she dedicated her life to.

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Link to Sun Herald article.

Sage words of advice by Koa on finding true freedom in this whacked-out world.  A compelling personal statement wrapped around a warning to prepare for what’s next if ever there was one.

Thanks to Survival Acres (John) for posting this where I could stumble across it.

No Facebook addiction here.

People all over the world are joining the never ending party on Facebook and finding lots of things to like about the FB interface, and the relative ease of staying connected with friends and family. Facebook is great for interacting with people, plus adding your photographs, videos, music, etc.

People who camp out on Facebook will probably never create a site of their own as a result, unless there’s a new and pressing personal or business need. And what passes for their Internet presence will be locked away behind logins, obscured to the general public (unavailable anyone who isn’t already a “friend”), and lost forever. That’s right, your whole Facebook account is like an unlisted number. You only give it out to friends and family. But the whole point of the Internet is being able to be found by anyone in one mouse click. Not ten or twenty or thousands. Or lucky enough to be invited to be your Facebook friend.

FB is fun to tinker with. But I have stopped adding media (music, videos, pics, etc.) to my Facebook page because it defeats the purpose of having a personal web site. I’ve also turned off the bothersome email notifications about new posts on my Facebook wall. The groups feature is good though…

This site is my wall, and a lot more. It’s been live since 1998. There’s tons of [me]dia stuff here, and more all the time. I’ve been careful to keep my stuff in a single place so that it amounts to more than a splattering of repartee, one liners and witty rejoinders and media posted across a bunch of web sites. Sure I have a Facebook profile. It points here.

Real friends actually visit here, and some even leave comments, etc. Other friends don’t take the time to do either. Fair enough.

Strong stuff. But it’s how I view the world and my place in it, especially the Internet world. Why add stuff to a social network controlled by someone else? In this case, a ballooning new Internet corporation that continues getting bigger and bigger because they have a firm grip on your eyeballs and those of all your friends? Isn’t this comparable to bringing your living room furniture, pajamas, a bottle of wine, and wall art to a nightclub and letting every friend and their friends sit on it, drink it or view it? What if you could invite your friends and family to your home on the Internet, i.e., your own web site?

I’m not about to say things on Facebook that require more than a sentence or two, infrequently. That’s what my personal site is for. I have much more to say to you and the rest of the wired world. I offer technical services too, descriptions of which would look kinda klunky on my Facebook profile. There’s more context to work with on this site.

Almost nobody I’ve friended on Facebook has a web site. A few musicians have sites, but the rest of them, nah. Too much trouble, not enough reason, independent streak isn’t strong enough, who knows the real reason why. Cost? It’s free to build a site. Reason? You do have more to say and share than one liners don’t you?

Real friends take the time to appreciate who their friends are, for who they are, and where they are. I’m just a click away. Not just because it’s cute to be found present and witty on some social network where every other friend can digest what’s being said as well. I will never get to know a lot of my Friends’ Friends. Not sure I want to, truth be told.

I hope you don’t take any of this personally. Or let me say that I hope you do take it personally and strike out on your own with an Internet presence that captures who you really are instead of a caricature served up by a corporation. Just because it’s free doesn’t mean it’s good for you. If you build a site, I’ll be a frequent visitor. Why? Because I like you and respect your opinions and value the time spent savoring who you are.

Real friendships are good for one’s health. Shallow friendships are like junk food consumed on the run. Real friends take the time to drop by every now and then for a dose of the real me.

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Come to my house for a very special concert on Friday night.

Last night I spent at least an hour swapping messages with a new friend on Facebook who happens to be the daughter of an interesting woman who lives nearby. I mentioned an upcoming concert featuring an internationally known fingerstyle guitar player at the absolute top of his game. And that she and her mother would be most welcome to attend. (This is outer Montana, very rural; every seat is a great seat, and every seat with a paying person in it counts. Which is why I work hard to sell the events. They wouldn’t happen otherwise.)

The artist in question is a music industry legend who fills concert halls and listening rooms and music festivals and who delights and thrills his audiences with every thumb-busting performance he gives. All over the world. This artist could easily win a place on a list of the top guitar players who have ever lived. At least among followers of fingerstyle guitar.

No kidding. This artist is easily a world-class performer, composer and musician, by any credible measure. One Google search would provide all the artist credibility needed to validate a decision to see the artist. But we’re not talking about what is credible here.

My new Facebook friend’s incredible ensuing interrogatory was predictable for someone who was looking—first and foremost—for a way out of “having to” attend a concert with an artist she did not yet know. She wasn’t interested in what she could learn about the artist by simply showing up, putting her butt in a seat and digesting every juicy moment of the show with the artist less than 8 feet away.

My Facebook pal wanted to know more about the artist: did he sing? Or does he “just” strum?

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Woman misses flight. Woman flips out. Woman doesn’t want to have a nice day.

I’ll spare you a hastily assembled catalogue of the many well-known benefits of composting organic waste. Almost everything food related that most folks in our great country throw away or send down the garbage disposal—except meat and dairy—is fodder for a compost heap. Even cardboard, unbleached paper and newspapers (soy inks are biodegradable too) are compostable if you can tackle it.

What, if you really think about it, is it that keeps you from composting? The smell? Working compost heaps don’t smell, but they do get warm from all the decomposition going on. The time and effort? Dump your garbage in a neat pile, toss a few shovelfuls of dirt on it and keep it stirred up and you’ll get dirt. Good dirt.

Could it be that you’ve never started a compost heap or sniffed the wormy, rich and loamy soil it magically creates in just a few weeks? This is rather likely.

Starting and maintaining your own compost heap is brain dead simple. Build or buy a composter, or if you have a fenced yard, start a pile in a convenient area and feed it your kitchen scraps and see what it happens! That’s it. But then it gets more complex because rotting vegetable matter makes incredibly fertile soil.

What to do with all that rich, loamy earth replete with earthworms and friendly bacteria? Well, you could grow a garden. Or at least use the resulting dirt to feed your lawn. Get your hands dirty and smell the fruits (and vegetables) of your labor. Better to start when you don’t need the veggies you’d grow. Because these days you never know when you and your family, friends and neighbors might.

Scot Ray and Bill Barrett
“Cross-cultural free folk genre bandits”

Gutpuppet is an LA-based acoustic duo, with Scot Ray on 6, 12, & 22 string slide guitars and slide banjo, along with the mind-bending chromatic harmonica playing of Bill Barrett.

Gutpuppet swings the sonic trapeze between Delta Blues, North Indian raga, Bluegrass, and Gypsy imbued transmutations. Watch the video or check out some glowing CDBaby Reviews here. Then come see the show if you’re in the area. If not, check back after the show for streaming audio of the entire shindig.

More info about the concert here.

Fascinating testimony from Russell Tice, NSA Whistleblower examining NSA data collection methods and the involvement of major telcos in sharing your (our) information. Was your electronic communication and credit information collected and scrutinized by spooks and their elaborate data mining tools in this massive undertaking? Hmm, sure looks like it. Tice has been speaking out for several years in a brave attempt to uncloak the truth about this country’s wholesale disregard for and invasion of privacy for the sake of keeping us safe.

This man deserves a job in the Obama administration and a bust of his likeness placed on the desk of whoever is running the NSA.

Link to Wired article.

Well, there’s karma and then there’s truckma. Some poor guy got run over by a monster truck in Wisconsin over the weekend. Turns out he’s been a promoter of monster truck events for over 15 years. While I’m sad the guy lost his life, it rather vividly demonstrates that we tend to attract our particular brand of karma by what we do—for a living, for recreation, for diversion, for thinking (or not).

Link to AP article.

Go Obama Go Tenacity

After 8 grueling years we’ve finally got a new president, and with a new attitude that has “can do” all over it. Time for Republicans and Democrats to roll up their sleeves and pitch in to create the solution, which will doubtless be wildly expensive.

God Bless Barack Obama and the United States. We gwine ta need it.

Related: Here’s a nice mashup of obamaiconme posters by Reilly Morse complete with a great version of Allen Toussaint singing “Yes We Can (Can)”. Reilly’s the handsome chap at the end of the vid.

Perhaps as much as $50 billion evaporates and Bernie Madoff is out of jail on house arrest and a pathetic $10 million dollar bail? Awaiting trial in the comfort of his Manhattan apartment? Yep.

The size of this swindle and the scope of injury and injustice wreaked on investors by one man is breathtaking. And he’s free for the moment at least.

This guy’s sitting in his Easy Boy about now sippin’ his favorite cognac and smoking cigars while having his feet massaged. Yet when some hard luck dude sticks a holdup note under a bank teller’s nose and flees with a wad of cash he goes straight to jail, and no bail.

Meanwhile his lawyers are banking hours and plotting their next moves to keep Bernie Madoff’s sentence as light as possible.

Enjoy your remaining days of freedom, Mr. Madoff. Savor it. Fret about it. It should be a rich experience. Very rich.

Link to Bloomberg article.

Several years back I worked for a software company run by a madman. How mad? You be the judge. After I left the company I wrote a post about my experience working for the guy. Start reading there for some background.

It’s truly amazing the company is still in business and the madman who founded the company still controls the whole operation. Rumors have long persisted that he hasn’t paid taxes in a number of years. But that’s nothing: In 2007, a young man who worked as a “bodyguard” for the CEO was stabbed to death in a drunken brawl outside a bar in the town where the company is located. And in 2008, he was sued by his former housekeepers for sexual harassment and found guilty. He owes them $330,000 in damages and reparations. And just today, another former employee sent me a link to a news article stating that he was being sued for back rent on his office building.

Quite a swath of destruction for a software company and its unscrupulous owner isn’t it? How many CEOs of software companies even need a bodyguard? The other sad part is that the guy is a talented developer of enterprise software. Software in use around the world in thousands of companies. If these customers knew how tenuous the guy’s grip on his business is, they would do whatever they needed to do to stop using the company’s software because it may not be supported for much longer.

This guy taught me a valuable lesson: Slime, no matter how good it might feel, doesn’t pay.

I could name the company and the man, but I won’t. Even if it is all too true. That would just be too slimy.

Most in this country would rather be served the news than be the news. In our stressed out world that definitely seems to be the case. It’s a weird form of oxygen-starved relaxation isn’t it: paddle like a dog to keep your life afloat, and when you can, watch breathlessly what happens to others than talk about (or video, pics, etc.) what happens to ourselves, what we think, what we feel, etc. We’re all in show me mode, deeply skeptical but just as deeply enamored with the media buffet being served up just for us media consumers.

You obviously can’t think for yourself, right? So there’s an umpteen-billion-dollar media industry to help us do just that: tell you how to feel, tell you what to buy, what to think, believe, trust, admire, etc.

Ah, the mental programming of spectatorship is well nigh total isn’t it? As a result, we are a bankrupt nation of non-communicators whose private stories are lost to the wind as we struggle with life’s many variables and scrupulously ignore each other’s stories because we don’t have time or don’t care to get involved. Herculean in scope, tragic in its consequence.

We have us a bonafide cultural wasteland, folks. Too bad. That’s what happens when a people ignores the real news: What’s happening with you, right about now.

I’m happier being myself and engaging with people (even anonymous Internet people) and talking about life than watching what happens to others and giving nothing back to this world we call media.

It’s never been simpler to become a media outlet. You should try it sometime. Set up a blog and keep a journal of pics, or videos, or even write stories about your life and family, friends, etc. In a year or two you’ll see the value and be glad you did. Even if you don’t share it with the rest of the world like I do.

Here are two great places to get started in under 1 minute.

http://www.blogger.com
http://www.wordpress.com

I’ve been playing guitar for 40 years with two hands. That’ s hard enough. But this guy plays guitar with his feet, and oh so very well!

“It has been my experience that folks who have no vices have very few virtues.”

Abraham Lincoln
16th president of US (1809 – 1865)

I have friends. You wouldn’t know it from the few snide comments on the site. But for one or two, my ‘friends’ have nothing whatsoever to do with it. I guess they’re too entrenched in their lives, or bummed out, or tired of me trying to be some sort of oracle about the environment. They might even think I’m flat-out stupid for even trying to make a difference in how people live their lives.

I have relatives. You wouldn’t know it from this site. None of them take the content here seriously because if they did they might feel driven to change how they live. They might feel a need to stop doing resource-intensive activities they really enjoy, like riding motorcycles or auto cross racing. Or leaving all the lights in their house on. Of course, they can’t take me or this site seriously. They would have to change.

I have business and professional associates. You wouldn’t know it from this page because they’re all consumed with running their businesses and paying their employees and bills. There’s no profit—and no time to waste—in exploring what they could do to reduce their carbon footprint. So they too ignore this page, even while hiring me to advance their businesses through web development and marketing communications.

I have unknown visitors from the Internet. You wouldn’t know it from this page. They’re mostly too rushed to linger long enough to savor the acrid sentiments of one writer who knows what the real source of the world’s environment problems is.

The real source? It’s you, unique visitor of the moment. I’m not too broke, rushed, bummed out, arrogant or smart to spend time and energy trying to reach you.

“Front porch, kitchen, back yard, drunk and sober, young and old, coast-to-coast folk music, a world in which I discovered that I don’t need power, wealth, or fame. I need friends. And that’s what I found and still find.

You folkies out there! Comrades! We’ve created together a whole small world of song, story, travel, love and food, face to face, in every corner of the land, mutually supportive and happening at a sub-industrial level, below the level of media notice. Hooray for us! Who needs the “entertainment” industry? Who needs mass media? Small is beautiful!

To hell with the mainstream. It’s polluted. What purifies the mainstream? The little tributaries up in the wilderness where the pure water flows. Better to be lost in the tributaries known to a few than mired in the mainstream, consumed with self-love and the absurdity of greed.

Please. Don’t give our world up. It needs to grow, yes — but subtly, out, through, under, quietly, like water eroding stone, subversive, alive, happy.”

By U. Utah Phillips, 2000

Survival Acres is a web site selling freeze-dried foods and other types of packaged food for long-term storage. The site’s owner also blogs with blunt economy about the coming “collapse” of modern civilization and a die-off of billions of people.

Not a collapse due to a single issue like global warming. More like collapse by a thousand cuts. Let’s start with global warming, wars, drought, disease, species decline, overfishing, a looming economic implosion, and end with the rollup trifecta: air pollution, water pollution, soil pollution? He and his crew of regular posters and commenters think it’s a done deal and go to great lengths to document and pointedly explain their belief that we pathetic humans are, in fact, screwed.

Yes, there are more regular people thinking this way. They’re not stupid, they’re not alarmists. They are paying attention and drawing conclusions that easily could prove true. Especially if you and me don’t radically alter our consumption of resources and get busy cleaning up the planet.

I think it’s certainly possible we will live to experience major disruption of our way of life, sooner than we collectively wish to think. Permanent disruption. Beyond a regional disaster. Perhaps even worldwide.

So, what’s in your survival toolkit?

Link to site.

For many years there has been speculation that grizzlies are slowly repopulating the remote portions of central Idaho and southwest Montana. Well, the truth just in: There are indeed grizzlies in the Bitterroot wilderness, and at least one of them is now dead thanks to a hunter from Tennessee who “mistakenly” shot the 400-500 male griz.

The hunter was “baiting” black bear, which is legal in Idaho, and was being guided by a local hunting guide. The hunting guide apparently “was not present” when the grizzly was shot. Probably setting camp for his high-dollar client and making the client’s coffee.

Do you really think a greenhorn from Tennessee is going to know the difference between a black bear and a grizzly?

Obviously, not a chance. When a grizzly dies this way it’s never called murder. And the perpetrator always gets away with it.

Disgusting.

Link to Missoulian article.

Sure you care about the environment? When’s the last time you walked somewhere you would normally drive to? Rode a bicycle to do an errand? Recycled anything? Grew a garden or started a compost heap? Stayed home because you felt a trip was somehow wasteful and unneccessary? Bought something practical at a flea market or second hand store, like clothing? Said “I don’t need a bag” at the supermarket?

Think you care about politics? When’s the last time you wrote a letter to your congressperson or senator about an issue that concerns you? When’s the last time you expressed your opinion about this country’s foreign policies or current leadership among a group of people? When is the last time you tried to change anyone’s mind about their political position? Have you ever boycotted anything to protest a company’s actions, such as child labor exploitation or environmental negligence?

Sure you care about the US economy and your pocketbook? Does our country being technically bankrupt bother you? How about the $400+ billion we’ve squandered in Iraq? How much money do you have in the bank? Did you earn any interest income last year? How much money do you blow on useless stuff? How many times a week do you eat at a restaurant?

So you care about other people? When’s the last time you replied to anything you’ve read online? Unlike television, the web is a bi-directional medium. When’s the last time you made a donation to a charity whose work you support?

Think you care about being more than what you do for a living? When’s the last time you took a day off just for you? Do you have a hobby or a passion?

Think you care about the truth? Does it make you mad that someone else has the nerve to ask what you think about it?

Good.

‘Bird lady’ was friend to Coast wildlife, birders

Judith Toups, Sun Herald columnist, dies
JEAN PRESCOTT, jtprescott@sunherald.com

Judy Toups, the Coast’s renowned “bird lady,” is going to miss spring migration this year for what probably is the first time since her ornithological interests began in 1972. It is not by choice. Toups died quietly at home Tuesday in Decatur, Ala., of complications from medical problems. She was 77.

Overwhelmed by Hurricane Katrina’s destruction – of bird habitat and the property of myriad friends and acquaintances here – she moved to that small Alabama town barely a year after the storm.

Born at the front-end of the Great Depression, in 1930, Toups met and married a handsome sailor from Mississippi – Jay Toups – in Gloucester, Mass., just minutes from her hometown of Magnolia, and returned with him to his home state in 1965, the year he mustered out of the Navy. They would settle in Gulfport and raise six children there: Jeffrey, young Jay, Patrice, Christine and twins Drayton and Desmond.

Toups’ parents realized, on one of their visits to the Coast, that a stay-home mom of six young children desperately needed a diversion. Someone bought a feeder. Someone else identified a bird, and Toups was off and running.

Everyone who knew her has an extraordinary personal story to tell.

Coast artist and veteran birder Alison Henry recalled her first field trip with Toups: “Here I was meeting the rock star of birding.” As the group gathered in the pre-dawn blackness, “Judy said, ‘Oh, good, everybody’s here. Now all we have to do is wait for the birds to wake up.’ I thought it quite remarkable. She was a brilliant teacher, a best friend and an honest critic. I was addicted to her as a person.”

Don McKee, another Toups friend and fan said Tuesday, “My opinion is that all of nature has lost a very dear friend, especially our avian friends. She will be remembered always as the mother of birdwatching in Mississippi. I don’t think of her as gone,” McKee said. “Today she’s soaring with the eagles.”

This writer’s personal story goes something like this: In the late 1980s, she performed a daring rescue of a sharp-shinned hawk from the front screened porch of a house where we lived in Bay St. Louis. The bird had barreled through the screen in pursuit of a squirrel and had been trapped on the porch, disoriented and unable to find the door and freedom. With only a quilt between her and sharp beak and talons, Toups dropped the bed covering over this formidable raptor, and with yours truly carrying the trailing tails of the quilt, she carried the swaddled bird outside and let it go.

What a woman.

At that point she had been writing a weekly column for the Sun Herald for 15 years; nearly 20 more years would follow.

Toups founded the Mississippi Coast Audubon Society and advanced its conservation causes, including the high-profile protection program for least terns and black skimmers, “Nest in Peace.”

She taught Seashore Methodist Assembly elderhostels and sent fledgling birders out across Coast terrain in search of native and visiting birds. Birders from every part of the United States knew her.

She developed the Mississippi Coastal Birding Trail map, and wrote two books on birding the Gulf Coast, plus innumerable articles for every birding journal ever published in late 20th-century America.

There is a trail named after Judy Toups in Jackson County’s Ward Bayou, and she has been honored by birding societies too numerous to count.

Daughter Christine Toups remembered, “Just a couple of weeks ago, I told her, ‘I plugged your name into Google, and almost 20,000 entries came up, Mom. You’ve been Googled.’

“She calmly turned to me and said, ‘Funny, I didn’t feel a thing.’”

Typical Toups.

Peck Funeral Home in Decatur is in charge of arrangements, which were incomplete Tuesday.

My mother was a well-known birder, writer, lecturer and teacher who passed away February 27 from lung cancer. She lived from the Great Depression of the 1930s to the new Environmental Great Depression of 2007. She was a true friend of the environment.

This time, the depression isn’t simply economic. America recovered from the Great Depression. This time it’s environmental. Can mankind recover from bankrupting the planet’s natural environment?

While the earth and all its creatures are suffering from our studious neglect and institutionalized indifference, people in this beautiful country continue doing what they have always done, which is buy into an economic paradigm that equates progress with our ability to consume everything that isn’t nailed down, trash it when we’re done, and leave finding a solution to the problem of our declining environment to the supposed experts.

Just after my mother passed away, I was excoriated by someone I care about for taking a “superior” tone about the source of the world’s environmental problems, such as NASCAR and the huge industry behind it. I was told that people “around here” don’t want to hear criticism about their favorite forms of recreation, all of it mechanized and resource intensive. Moreover I was told that I could expect any number of threats from “Bubba.”

Well Bubba save yourself the dime. I’m onto your games and they suck because they’re suicidal. I’m reaching out to give you a hand to save you from yourself.

I’m sorry if anyone finds the truth offensive. Too damn bad. People who can pull their heads out of their asses long enough to see what is going on make great environmental crusaders. You should try it. I might not come off as superior to you.

NASCAR is the problem. NASCAR sponsors, drivers, fans, mechanics, tracks, bobble head announcers, cameramen, etc., are the problem. Bikers are the problem. Bike week is the problem. NFL is the problem. NFL fans are the problem. Stadiums where lots of people drive to week in and week out, year after year, and watch their precious teams are the problem.

Whatever is unnecessary by environmental measure is the problem.

If you identify with corporatized recreation enough to get mad at someone who insists the stuff that passes for “recreation” in a large swath of middle America is a big part of our environmental problems, you should take a harder look at what’s killing the planet and where it’s coming from.

Any mirror will do.

“Our hands have met, but not our hearts;
Our hands will never meet again.
Friends, if we have ever been,
Friends we cannot now remain.”

Thomas Hood 1799-1845

Want to see who your real friends are? It’s simple to lose some or all of your “oinker” friends. Just start trying to live your life more sustainably. Just start talking about it. Step away from the trough of materialism and see what happens. Cleave yourself off from the herd and learn how to reduce your carbon footprint. Start making needed adjustments in your lifestyle, and then start actively encouraging other people to reduce, reuse, recycle. Or no-cycle, as in do without.

Talk about being green and do the walk. Bring up environmental issues and explore the topic in earnest as if your life and theirs depended on it. You’re not an expert on being green, but you don’t have to be an expert to understand what is happening to this planet and what we need to do about it. But be ready for some good old fashioned blowback. And the occasional oink.

In some cases, you’ll be treated like a religious fundamentalist or a rabid sports fan, with a mix of open hostility, ridicule or misinformed amusement. Mostly you’ll be ignored, as I have. Very likely most people you consider to be friends and acquaintances will not ever take your efforts seriously. Some will even as far as to sever all contact with you just for crossing the line and talking about something that makes them extremely uncomfortable.

Why is that? Could it be they’re oinkers with snouts firmly planted in the trough who’d rather die than give up their place in line? Is there a “selfish” gene?

Being green is a personal decision that requires good self esteem that isn’t derived solely from what others think of you. You are more than the sumof your stuff and other people’s views of you. Oink. Nobody can decide for you that you will be a good environmentalist from this day forward. It’s your decision. It comes with a price in the social realm.

In this country, the default mode of environmentalism is switched to off or “bad” as people go about their daily business of consuming, traveling and basically trashing the earth’s resources. It’s up to you to take a stand and do something credible or not. But it’s easy to see why you probably won’t. You don’t care enough to lose friends who are stuck in trash mode and wish to remain there. After all, if you’re not consuming in lock step with them you’ll be kicked off the island because you’re no longer like them.

Of course you care about the environment, just not that much. I get it. Go get a double-bacon cheeseburger and make sure to fill your gas tank so you won’t miss a thing at the trough next to your beloved buddies.

Oink.

Go ahead. Surely, a word to describe your inability to lessen your impact on our environment is on the tip of your tongue. Drawing a blank? Figures. Okay, go ahead and ruminate on this for a minute or two. Chew your cud and spit out whatever comes to your mushy mind. Leave a comment if you would like. But it’s probably not going to be the same word I’d use. You’d probably say “busy” or “don’t care.” Or perhaps, “I can’t afford to have an opinion.” If you took the time.

Chew your cud some more.

Let’s take a look at what helped to create this cattle-like spectator attitude in you. This country and its people are largely stuck in the 20th century which gave rise to the American economic, social and cultural dreamscape that persists to this day. We wage war to create peace. We are Conservatives who conserve nothing and deny the need to conserve anything. We tighten the garrotte on the future as we continue being mindless and heedless today. Rolling around in piles of materiality that will become a tomb unless there is a dramatic shift in people’s everyday actions toward conservation of the real kind. All people. Not just some people. Conserving. As in resources unused.

Exhausting the Earth’s “Capital”
As the planet’s health declines, we’re on autopilot as individuals, pawns and rooks in the game being played by those who pull the gears, levers, and wheels of our Rube Goldberg-esque economy. We’re vassals, not of government, but of corporations. This headlong approach is mirrored by 1.3 billion Chinese people. And 1.2 billion Indian people.

All of us can read blogs. Not everybody can see the writing on the wall for our planet. The purpose of this essay is to point at human-manufactured pollution’s source: the average-income person living in a free country anywhere on the planet.

In this country, statistically speaking, you drive a car to work everyday. You eat some type of meat at almost every meal. You don’t recycle anything more than bread ties. You don’t have a compost heap. You may not even know what a compost heap is. You don’t have a garden either. You probably don’t like brocolli, just like George Bush. You probably don’t like me for saying so.

By any material, objective definition, you are a corporate tool. Look around you. How much stuff do you throw in the trash every stinking day? Give no thought to where it ends up. Do nothing to avoid using it in the first place. Why? Because you think it’s just too much to think about, this environmental quagmire we’re all in. You’re probably hungry. I know, you have your reasons and your priorities, and they’re not unique, obviously.

Go ahead, this weekend turn on your television and blot out any thoughts that might stir you into some. kind. of. action. So order in some pizza, turn on This Old House, or a NASCAR race, or switch over to a basketball game. It’s almost March Madness, remember. Have a Budweiser. Toss out the can. Have another. Cruise the net. Buy more stuff. Go somewhere for the fun of it. Fuck tomorrow. Fuck this topic. Fuck this blogger who sets himself up as some kind of pundit saying you should change.

You will change whether you agree to the changes or not.

So go ahead and follow your sports or cultural heroes and captains of industry today. Bow down and kiss the feet of those who have more material blessings and a lifestyle you covet. Aspire to be as like them as you can possibly be and little else. And make sure to studiously ignore dissenting voices that attempt to reach out or reason with you.

You, Mr. and Ms. America, cannot be reasoned with. You shut down easily as your brain and temperament overheat from any needlessly thought-provoking exertion. You have no spirit for dialog that asks for you to give something back. You get your opinions from CNN and Fox News. You give nothing back beyond your own dinner table. Therefore any opinion you come away with after reading this blogger’s appeal to you will likely remain unshared. Your judgment is sacrosanct. I have somehow impugned it. You want to kill the messenger for it. Fine, but this is the very definition of the selfishness that rules our daily lives. If you don’t want to watch or help, you turn away. In this country, it’s called class and style.

Have a nice day living with your eyes wide shut and being part of the environmental problems facing humanity and all living things. Thank you for reading and good luck pulling that blank out of your apathetic ass.

Al Gore will testify next month on climate change issues. He will be the only witness to appear before the Energy and Commerce Subcommittee on Energy and Air Quality and the Science and Technology Subcommittee on Energy and Environment. Gore served on both committees during his House tenure representing a Tennessee district.

How much will this dog and pony show cost taxpayers? A ton. How much will this change anything? Will anyone at this meeting be conserving anything. Why hell no. Zip.

Our illustrious senators and congress could have simply watched An Inconvenient Truth.

Link to article.

Finally. 10 CEOs of major U.S. companies are urging George Bush to take action and address global warming in his upcoming state of the Union address. This means he’ll bow and scrape for a few minutes, mutter the necessary platitudes, and move on to his favorite agenda:

Link to article.

Living on Earth provides a poignant look into the lives of trash pickers living near the gigantic garbage dump Payatas just outside Manila, Phillipines.

Link to article.

Well you can’t club the person who insists there’s nothing wrong with the environment like a baby seal. You have to reason with them, even if they’re as dumb as a post.

Here’s a great page to help you do just that. Thanks to Coby Beck at Ill Considered for this great thread.

Written by Professor Leslie A. Fiedler
Originally published in the Partisan Review, December 1949

Hier oder nirgends ist Amerika. GOETHE

There is a sense, disturbing to good Montanans, in which Montana is a by-product of European letters, an invention of the Romantic Movement in literature. In 1743 a white man penetrated Montana for the first time, but there was then simply nothing to do with it: nothing yet to do economically in the first place, but also no way of assimilating the land to the imagination. Before the secure establishment of the categories of the interessant and the “picturesque,” how could one have come to terms with the inhumanly virginal landscape: the atrocious magnificence of the mountains, the illimitable brute fact of the prairies? A new setting for hell, perhaps, but no background for any human feeling discovered up to that point; even Sturm und Drang was yet to come.

And what of the Indians? The redskin had been part of daily life in America and a display piece in Europe for a couple of hundred years, but he had not yet made the leap from a fact of existence to one of culture. The Spirit of Christianity of Chateaubriand and the expedition of Lewis and Clark that decisively opened Montana to the East were almost exactly contemporary, and both had to await the turn of the nineteenth century. Sacajawea, the Indian girl guide of Captain Clark (the legendary Sacajawea, of course, shorn of such dissonant realistic details as a husband, etc.), is as much a product of a new sensibility as Atala – and neither would have been possible without Rousseau and the beautiful lie of the Noble Savage. By the time the trapper had followed the explorer, and had been in turn followed by the priest and the prospector, George Catlin in paint and James Fenimore Cooper in the novel had fixed for the American imagination the fictive Indian and the legend of the ennobling wilderness: the primitive as Utopia. Montana was psychologically possible.

One knows generally that, behind the thin neo-Classical facade of Virginia and Philadelphia and Boston, the mythical meanings of America have traditionally been sustained by the Romantic sensibility (the hero of the first American novel died a suicide, a copy of Werther lying on the table beside him); that America had been unremittingly dreamed from East to West as a testament to the original goodness of man: from England and the Continent to the Atlantic seaboard; from the Atlantic seaboard to the Midwest; from the Midwest to the Rocky Mountains and the Pacific. And the margin where the Dream has encountered the resistance of fact, where the Noble Savage has confronted Original Sin (the edge of hysteria: of the twitching revivals, ritual drunkenness, “shooting up the town,” of the rape of nature and the almost compulsive slaughter of beasts) we call simply: the Frontier.

Guilt and the Frontier are coupled from the first; but the inhabitants of a Primary Frontier, struggling for existence under marginal conditions, have neither the time nor energy to feel consciously the contradiction between their actuality and their dream. Survival is for them a sufficient victory. The contradiction remains largely unrealized, geographically sundered; for those who continue to dream the Dream are in their safe East (Cooper in Westchester or New York City), and those who live the fact have become total Westerners, deliberately cut off from history and myth, immune even to the implications of their own landscape. On into the second stage of the Frontier, it is dangerous for anyone who wants to live in a Western community to admire the scenery openly (it evokes the Dream); such sentiments are legitimate only for “dudes,” that is to say, visitors and barnstorming politicians.

But the schoolmarm, pushing out before her the whore, symbol of the denial of romance, moves in from the East to marry the rancher or the mining engineer (a critical cultural event intuitively preserved as a convention of the Western movie); and the Dream and the fact confront each other openly. The schoolteacher brings with her the sentimentalized Frontier novel, and on all levels a demand begins to grow for some kind of art to nurture the myth, to turn a way of life into a culture. The legend is ready-made and waiting, and speedily finds forms in the pulps the movies, the Western story, the fake cowboy song manufactured at first by absentee dudes, but later ground out on the spot by cultural “compradors.” The Secondary Frontier moves from naivete’ to an elementary consciousness of history and discrepancy; on the one hand, it falsifies history, idealizing even the recent past into the image of the myth, while, on the other hand, it is driven to lay bare the failures of its founders to live up to the Rousseauistic ideal. The West is reinvented!

At the present moment, Montana is in some respects such a Secondary Frontier, torn between an idolatrous regard for its refurbished past (the naive culture it holds up defiantly against the sophistication of the East, not realizing that the East requires of it precisely such a contemporary role), and a vague feeling of guilt at the confrontation of the legend of its past with the real history that keeps breaking through. But in other respects, Montana has gone on to the next stage: the Tertiary or pseudo-Frontier, a past artificially contrived for commercial purposes, the Frontier as bread and butter.

In the last few years, Montana has seen an efflorescence of “Sheriff’s Posses”; dude ranches; chamber of commerce rodeos, hiring professional riders; and large-scale “Pioneer Days,” during which the bank clerk and the auto salesman grow beards and “go Western” to keep the tourist-crammed coaches of the Northern Pacific and the Great Northern rolling. The East has come to see its ancient dream in action -and they demand it on the line, available for the two-week vacationer. What the Easterner expects, the Montanan is prepared to give him, a sham mounted half in cynicism, half with the sense that this is, after all, what the West really means, merely made visible, vivid. There is, too, a good deal of “play” involved, a not wholly unsympathetic boyish pleasure in dressing up and pulling the leg of the outlander, which over-lays and to some degree mitigates the cruder motives of “going Western.” But in Montana’s larger cities and towns a new kind of entrepreneur has appeared: the Rodeo and Pioneer Days Manager, to whom the West is strictly business. There is scarcely a Montanan who does not at one remove or another share in the hoax and in the take; who has not, like the nightclub Negro or the stage Irishman, become the pimp of his particularity, of the landscape and legend of his state.

Astonishingly ignorant of all this, I came from the East in 1941 to live in Montana, possessing only what might be called the standard Eastern equipment: the name of the state capital (mispronounced); dim memories of a rather absurd poem that had appeared, I believe, in The Nation, and that began: “Hot afternoons have been in Montana”; some information about Burton K. Wheeler; and the impression that Montana (or was it Idaho?) served Ernest Hemingway as a sort of alternative Green Hills of Africa. I had, in short, inherited a shabby remnant of the Romantic myth; and, trembling on an even more remote periphery of remembering, I was aware of visions of the Indian (out of Cooper and “The Vanishing American”) and the Cowboy, looking very much like Tom Mix. I was prepared not to call cattle “cows,” and resolutely to face down any student who came to argue about his grades armed with a six-shooter.

I was met unexpectedly by the Montana Face.* What I had been expecting I do not clearly know; zest, I suppose, naivete’, a ruddy and straightforward kind of vigor – perhaps even honest brutality. What I found seemed, at first glance, reticent, sullen, weary – full of self-sufficient stupidity; a little later it appeared simply inarticulate, with all the dumb pathos of what cannot declare itself: a face developed not for sociability or feeling, but for facing into the weather. It said friendly things to be sure, and meant them; but it had no adequate physical expressions even for friendliness, and the muscles around the mouth and eyes were obviously unprepared to cope with the demands of any more complicated emotion. I felt a kind of innocence behind it, but an innocence difficult to distinguish from simple ignorance. In a way, there was something heartening in dealing with people who had never seen, for instance, a Negro or a Jew or a Servant, and were immune to all their bitter meanings; but the same people, I knew, had never seen an art museum or a ballet or even a movie in any language but their own, and the poverty of experience had left the possibilities of the human face in them incompletely realized.

“Healthy!” I was tempted to think contemptuously, missing the conventional stigmata of neurosis I had grown up thinking the inevitable concomitants of intelligence. It was true, certainly, that neither the uses nor the abuses of conversation, the intellectual play to which I was accustomed, flourished here; in that sense the faces didn’t lie. They were conditioned by a mean, a parsimonious culture; but they were by no means mentally incurious – certainly not “healthy,” rather pricked invisibly by insecurity and guilt. To believe anything else was to submit to a kind of parody of the Noble Savage, the Healthy Savage – stupidity as mental health. Indeed there was, in their very inadequacy at expressing their inwardness, the possibility of pathos at least – perhaps even tragedy. Such a face to stand at the focus of reality and myth, and in the midst of all the grandiloquence of the mountains! One reads behind it a challenge that demands a great, liberating art, a ritual of expression – and there is, of course, the movies.

*Natives of Montana, it is only fair to say, don’t believe in, don’t see the Montana Face, though of course they can describe the Eastern Face, black, harried, neurotic. It takes a long time before newcomers dare confide in each other what they all see, discover that they have not been enduring a lonely hallucination; but the unwary outlander who sets down for public consumption an account of what he has noticed before he forgets it or comes to find it irrelevant must endure scorn and even hatred. Since the first publication of this essay, I have been reviled for putting in print my (I had supposed) quite unmalicious remarks on the “Montana Face” by men who have never read the Partisan Review – indeed by some who, I suspect, do not read at all. Yet some of those most exercised have been quite willing to admit the inarticulateness, the starvation of sensibility and inhibition of expression, of which “the Face” is an outward symbol To criticize the soul is one thing, to insult the body quite another!

The seediest moving-picture theater in town, I soon discovered, showed every Saturday the same kind of Western picture at which I had yelled and squirmed as a kid, clutching my box of jujubes; but in this context it was different. The children still eagerly attended, to be sure – but also the cowhands. In their run-over-at-the-heels boots and dirty jeans, they were apparently willing to invest a good part of their day off watching Gene and Roy, in carefully tailored togs, get the rustlers, save the ranch, and secure the Right; meanwhile making their own jobs, their everyday work into a symbol of the Natural Gentleman at home.

They believed it all – not only that the Good triumphs in the end, but that the authentic hero is the man who herds cattle. Unlike, for instance, the soldier at the war picture, they never snickered, but cheered at all the right places; and yet, going out from contemplating their idealized selves to get drunk or laid, they must somehow have felt the discrepancy, as failure or irony or God knows what. Certainly for the bystander watching the cowboy, a comic book under his arm, lounging beneath the bright poster of the latest Roy Rogers film, there is the sense of a joke on someone – and no one to laugh. It is nothing less than the total myth of the goodness of man in a state of nature that is at stake every Saturday after the show at the Rialto; and, though there is scarcely anyone who sees the issue clearly or as a whole, most Montanans are driven instinctively to try to close the gap.

The real cowpuncher begins to emulate his Hollywood version; and the run-of-the-mill professional rodeo rider, who has turned a community work-festival into paying entertainment, is an intermediary between life and the screen, the poor man’s Gene Autry. A strange set of circumstances has preserved in the cowboy of the horse opera the Child of Nature, Natty Bumppo become Roy Rogers (the simple soul ennobled by intimacy with beasts and a virginal landscape), and has trans-formed his saga into the national myth. The boyhood of most living Americans does not go back beyond the first movie cowpuncher, and these days the kid without a cowboy outfit is a second-class citizen anywhere in America. Uncle Sam still survives as our public symbol; but actually America has come to picture itself in chaps rather than striped pants.*

*The myth of the Cowboy has recently begun to decline in popular favor, crowded out of the pulps by the Private Eye and the Space Pilot; and is being “secularized,” like all archetypes that are dying, in a host of more or less highbrow reworkings of the archetypal theme: Shane, High Noon, etc.

Since we are comparatively historyless and culturally dependent, our claim to moral supremacy rests upon a belief that a high civilization is at a maximum distance from goodness; the cowboy is more noble than the earl.

But, on the last frontiers of Montana, the noble lie of Rousseau is simply a lie; the face on the screen is debunked by the watcher. The tourist, of course, can always go to the better theaters, drink at the more elegant bars beside the local property owner, dressed up for Pioneer Days. The cowhands go to the shabby movie house off the main drag and do their drinking in their own dismal places. And when the resident Easterner or the visitor attempts to pursue the cowpuncher to his authentic dive, the owner gets rich, chases out the older whores, puts in neon lights and linoleum – which, I suppose, serves everybody right.

But the better-educated Montanan does not go to the Westerns. He discounts in advance the vulgar myth of the Cowboy, where the audience gives the fable the lie, and moves the Dream, the locus of innocence, back into a remoter past; the surviving Cowboy is surrendered for the irrecoverable Pioneer. It is the Frontiersman, the Guide who are proposed as symbols of original nobility: Jim Bridger or John Colter, who outran half a tribe of Indians, barefoot over brambles. But this means giving up to begin with the possibilities that the discovery of a New World had seemed to promise: a present past, a primitive now, America as a contemporary Golden Age.

When the point of irreconcilable conflict between fact and fiction had been reached earlier, the Dream had been projected westward toward a new Frontier – but Montana is a last Frontier; there is no more ultimate West. Here the myth of the Noble Woodsman can no longer be maintained in space (the dream of Rousseau reaches a cul-de-sac at the Lions Club luncheon in Two Dot, Montana); it retreats from geography into time, from a discoverable West into the realm of an irrecoverable past. But even the past is not really safe.

Under the compulsion to examine his past (and there have been recently several investigations, culminating in the Rockefeller Foundation-sponsored Montana Study), the contemporary Montanan, pledged to history though nostalgic for myth, becomes willy-nilly an iconoclast. Beside a John Colter he discovers a Henry Plummer, the sheriff who was for years secretly a bandit; and the lynch “justice” to which Plummer was brought seems to the modern point of view as ambiguous as his career. The figure of the Pioneer becomes ever more narrow, crude, brutal; his law is revealed as arbitrary force, his motive power as – greed. The Montanan poring over his past comes to seem like those dance-hall girls, of whom a local story tells, panning the ashes of a road agent who had been lynched and burned, for the gold it had been rumored he was carrying. Perhaps there had never been any gold in the first place.

It is in his relations with the Indian that the Pioneer shows to worst advantage. The record of those relations is one of aggression and deceit and, more remotely, the smug assumption that anything goes with “Savages.” There are honorable exceptions among the early missionaries, but it is hard for a Protestant culture to make a Jesuit its hero. For many years the famous painting of Custer’s Last Stand hung in the state university, where the students of history were being taught facts that kept them from taking Custer for the innocent Victrm, the symbolic figure of the white man betrayed by crafty redskins that he is elsewhere. In Montana it is difficult to see the slaughter at Little Big Horn as anything but the result of a tactical error in a long warfare with whose motives one can no longer sympathize.

Driving across Montana, the conscientious sightseer who slows up for the signs saying “Historic Point 1000 Feet” can read the roadside marker beside US 2 at Chinook, which memorializes “The usual fork-tongued methods of the white which had deprived these Indians of their hereditary lands,” “One of the blackest records of our dealings with the Indians…” Or at Poplar he can learn how the Assiniboines “are now waiting passively for the fulfillment of treaties made with ‘The Great White Father.’ “*

*I have since been told that these signs were composed by a self-conscious “rebel,” who later accommodated to the ruling powers and grew rich; but such an account is itself an American Legend – and anyway the words of the “rebel” have never seemed inappropriate to legislator, road commissioner, or traveler on the highways.

It is at first thoroughly disconcerting to discover such confessions of shame blessed by the state legislature and blazoned on the main roads where travelers are enjoined to stop and notice. What motives can underlie such declarations: The feeling that simple confession is enough for absolution? A compulsion to blurt out one’s utmost indignity? A shallow show of regret that protects a basic indifference? It is not only the road markers that keep alive the memory of the repeated betrayals and acts of immoral appropriation that brought Montana into existence; there are books to document the story, and community pageants to present it in dramatic form. The recollection of a common guilt comes to be almost a patriotic duty.

What is primarily involved is, I think, an attempt to identify with the Indian. Notice in the sentences quoted from highway signs the use of Indian terminology, “fork-tongued,” “Great White Father” – the attempt to get inside the Indian’s predicament. If the Pioneer seems an ignoble figure beside the Indian, it is perhaps because he was, as a Noble Savage, not quite savage enough; as close as he was to nature, the White Pioneer, already corrupted by Europe and civilization, could not achieve the saving closeness. “Civilization,” a road sign between Hysham and Forsyth ironically comments, “is a wonderful thing, according to some people.” The corpse of Rousseau is still twitching.

At the beginnings of American literature, Cooper had suggested two avatars of primeval goodness: Pioneer and Indian, the alternative nobility of Natty Bumppo and Chingachgook; and the Montanan, struggling to hang on to the Romantic denial of Original Sin, turns to the latter, makes the injured Chief Joseph or Sitting Bull the Natural Gentleman in place of the deposed Frontiersman.

But the sentimentalized Indian will not stand up under scrutiny either. “The only good Indian is a dead Indian,” the old folk saying asserts; and indeed the Montanan who is busy keeping the living Indian in the ghetto of the reservation cannot afford to believe too sincerely in his nobility. The cruelest aspect of social life in Montana is the exclusion of the Indian; deprived of his best land, forbidden access to the upper levels of white society, kept out of any job involving prestige, even in some churches confined to the back rows, but of course protected from whisky and comforted with hot lunches and free hospitals – the actual Indian is a constant reproach to the Montanan, who feels himself Nature’s own democrat, and scorns the South for its treatment of the Negro, the East for its attitude toward the Jews. To justify the continuing exclusion of the Indian, the local white has evolved the theory that the redskin is naturally dirty, lazy, dishonest, incapable of assuming responsibility – a troublesome child; and this theory confronts dumbly any attempt at reasserting the myth of the Noble Savage.

The trick is, of course, to keep the Indian what he is, so that he may be pointed out, his present state held up as a justification for what has been done to him. And the trick works; the Indian acts as he is expected to; confirmed in indolence and filth, sustained by an occasional smuggled bout of drunkenness, he does not seem even to have clung to his original resentment, lapsing rather into apathy and a certain self-contempt. The only thing white civilization had brought to the Indian that might be judged a good was a new religion; but one hears tales now of the rise of dope-cults, of “Indian Christianity,” in which Jesus and Mary and the drug peyote are equally adored. Once I traveled for two days with an Indian boy on his way to be inducted into the Army; and, when he opened the one paper satchel he carried, it contained: a single extra suit of long underwear and forty comic books -all the goods, material and spiritual, with which our culture had endowed him.

On the side of the whites, there is, I think, a constantly nagging though unconfessed sense of guilt, perhaps the chief terror that struggles to be registered on the baffled Montana Face. It is a struggle much more diflicult for the Montana “liberal” to deal with than those other conflicts between the desired and the actual to which he turns almost with relief: the fight with the Power Company or the Anaconda Copper Mining Company for the instruments of communication and the possibilities of freedom. The latter struggles tend to pre-empt the liberal’s imagination, because on them he can take an unequivocal stand; but in respect to the Indian he is torn with inner feelings of guilt, the knowledge of his own complicity in perpetuating the stereotypes of prejudice and discrimination. In that relationship he cannot wholly dissociate himself from the oppressors; by his color, he is born into the camp of the Enemy. There is, of course, no easy solution to the Indian problem; but so long as the Montanan fails to come to terms with the Indian, despised and outcast in his open-air ghettos, just so long will he be incapable of coming to terms with his own real past, of making the adjustment between myth and reality upon which a successful culture depends. When he admits that the Noble Savage is a lie; when he has learned that his state is where the myth comes to die (it is here, one is reminded, that the original of Huck Finn ended his days, a respected citizen), the Montanan may find the possibilities of tragedy and poetry for which so far he has searched his life in vain.

Originally published in the Partisan Review, December 1949;
Republished in An End of Innocence, 1955 (Beacon Press)
Second edition of An End of Innocence published by Stein and Day, 1971

From INTRODUCTION TO THE SECOND EDITION, 1971
…many of the contradictory impulses memorialized in Montana; or the End of Jean-Jacques Rousseau-impulses which led me first to abandon the East, then to criticize the place to which I had come-presently possess the minds of the those young men and women, the children of fathers who unlike me stayed in the Urban East, who are just now abandoning the city and moving into what survives of the West. Such young wanderers constitute a third westward migration which promises to become as significant in the making of American culture as was the mid-nineteenth-century first wave. I can now see my own move as part of a small second wave, whose goals were more ironically and less sentimentally defined than either of the other two since we sought not mining camps (like the first) or communes (like the third) but only universities and colleges, fortresses of culture in a dying wilderness. But we managed all the same to keep alive in a time of paralysis and timidity the notion of heading westward, the dream of getting out.

*Here or nowhere is America. Johann Wolfgang von Goethe (1749-1832)

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